Never lie

Never lie to the person you love...
It's not worth it and they don't deserve it...

i'm not the only one

I don't want to say that I was the perfect woman.
but I just wanted to say that: "i know that i am not the only one"
and in the marriage can happen like this ........

never called me

when I decided to release him from my heart
I know that I don't want to communicate with him anymore.
although I hope he will send a message to me or he'll call me,
but he never called me and sent a message too.
I finally knew that he was not the type of man as I want.
although it's hard but I realized that I should be much stronger than what I faced!

 

A Little Bit Stronger

one day one of my friends send this link to me,
she said: "I've seen this video and it could change my heart become stronger  

and i don't want to wait and hope anymore

so if i could do like that then you should too!"
and when I saw the video,
I told her : "yach .. it 's true ..it's works for me too...."

*thank you so much,my friend...

like i'm gonna lose you

in fact, to be honest in this heart,
I want to say: "I don't want to lose you,
I love you with all my heart"
but since a few years
my situation has changed
and also makes me have to let you go,

locked away

I love the lyrics of this song, 
easy listening for people like me. 
especially in the reff:
"please tell me honestly, would you still love me the same ..."
 
reminds me a lot of  someone,
especially when I have to eliminate my bad sight to him!

 

so romantic

my fav song now is "Marvin Gaye" by Marvin Gaye feat Meghan Train
so romantic scene i think,
sometimes i wonder if i can sing with my loved one 
and i can hug him so tight 
and kiss him so passion,
same as this music video
*uffghhh...

Worth It

 when i heard this song,i remember the people who makes me worth it,
*my kids.....
they always support when i was in difficult situation
thank God that i have my kids............ 

i remember

i remember when it was your birthday,
and I sent "happy birthday " message to you.
but when my birthday and you didn't send any message to me,
finally know that you've been out of my life!
* I never expect someone to do the same....

Whatsapp

yesterday I saw you online in whatsapp,
and it seemed I wanted to send you "hello"

but my heart said "don't do it"

*because i've been out of your life!

Mars

Move on? 

Yes...

So i decided to go to the Planet Mars

*bye Earth

Tying my hair

 maybe because the weather is too hot,  
now I prefer tying my hair back in a braid, like this

*looks free and fresh...i guess...

back to normal

day by day my body is getting better,

and my health is back to normal.

it's really good to be a healthy person

*thank God for Your blessings,amen

we're different

do you know that me and you are different,

from our story  to our logic!
so i know why we can't be together..................   
*then why we have to keep our wish to meet?

 

to get me

when I realized that I was not going to pursue the expectations on someone  
 (who does not want to try to get my love)
I will try to be my own self and live with my children.
if he wanted to come and be a part of my life 
then he should come, not me!

*the point is " he has to make an effort to get me!"

  

become zero

for what we maintain our relationship if we have no love anymore?

 (when you say that you will get married and have a family and children)

you ever said to me:"I have a plan,
i want to married with someone 
and have a family and kids"

You also told me: "You're married and I accepted it,
so you accept it or not with my plan?"

 

i can't answer your question at that time,because
 I do not know what to say ...
I just replied with a written message to your phone,
"I'll answer that when we meet in the real world later!

 

 and after that i decided to not communicate with you again

it mean : " no more value "
so should I keep this relationship?

i only pray to GOD about my heart and my feeling  
*to become zero... 

 

why you're still in my mind?

sometimes i don't want to think about you,

and i try now to forget you,
and keep being busy day by day

but why you're still in my mind,baby?

 please,GOD...

make his face go away from mine....

to get my balloon

step 1;

there are many things to be done by me,
but patient and remain silent,,,, it should be!

than I have to scream and there was no point,
better keep silent.

*especially if I complain.....

  step 2
when I fell and was sick, no one wants to help,
so all I did by myself ........

*I'm used to do it all by myself,

step 3

I was taught not to be complaining,
so wait for opportunity is the best time I want right now! 

step 4

to get my balloon!